((also, I am writing this on not having much sleep, and my allergies are rearing their ugly heads... so yeah, my writing is not up to par right now. I just want to get these feelings down when I have a chance to))
so I am having the most incredible experience of my life. for serious.
in case you didn't know, I'm currently an RA for Mississippi's Governors School. I attended MGS in 2007, and while I did enjoy myself, I didn't really come out of my shell or socialize very much.
well, now I am like one of those hermit crabs. you know, the ones that you buy at the fair, and they have painted shells? they have to switch from one shell to another (I have no idea why... my crabs always died way before they got to the switching point).
so, I feel like one of those crabs. I have switched shells and now I am in a bright, roomy shell (also, I feel like it has a rainbow on it... or it is ORANGE!) I feel so comfortable here. My shell fits!
here, I don't feel self conscience. I'm not really aware of my weight (which is always something I'm really aware of). I'm funnier here, or rather, I feel comfortable enough to be myself, and to make my smart (goofy) jokes, someone will get them. here, the other female RA's aren't focused on boys. the male RA's are the first boys I've been around in a long time, that our interactions don't have a forced sexual over tone. it's like sex and gender here don't matter so much. intelligence does.
I feel like I'm different here, but maybe I'm just more myself? I will talk to every one (and anyone) and man, I am loud. One of the girls said to me, "I admire you because you are so out going" and I could only think, "wow, normally I'm the shy one"
here, we don't put other down to make ourselves feel better. we don't poke fun at flaws. I'm saying we, because I feel like the entire program is so united that we are now a we
also, my girls (my wing) filled out note cards where they 1) said what their favorite part of MGS thus far has been 2) their lest favorite part 3) and anything they wanted me to know (like a roommate issue, clique problems, that sort of thing)
normal favorite part was everything, meeting new people at lunch, and getting to hang out with those new people during free time.
normal least favorite was nothing, the heat, the stairs, and not enough free time.
normal thing the wanted me to know some random fact, I love you Megan or I am not a suck, up but I find you very inspirational (LEGIT!)
my personal favorite thing the wanted me to know: I just wanted you to know, your hair is really, really awesome!
:)
